Can you imagine living in a world where the King orders you to stay trapped inside? A world where there isn't any toilet paper, you can't leave your house between the hours of 6pm-7am? Following royal decrees, having no movie theater, or outside places to chat?
THAT'S THE LIFE i'm living I am so humbly and grateful that I was able to have this life here. Living abroad, and still being able to get paid, so blessed, really. But, I want to go home. Living in a foreign country during a world wide killing virus is not something everyone has to have consider dealing with one day. Like, no one could make this shit up. This whole thing, all the corona goodness, is going to be in history books some year. A teacher, just like myself is going to teach her babies and students, all about a time in the world where it shut down. How people sang off of back porches and balconies to have human connection. It's going to say books how the elderly couldn't go outside to go shopping, how nurses ended up having no gloves and masks. Can you even begin to imagine that. How that would like, how that would sound. And among all that, pretending your in the future, and a child is learning about a time freezing virus, would you be proud of your actions? They say the symptoms show anywhere between 2-14 days to show signs. Carriers don't know they are. I was in the same airport, leaving North Dakota, 8 days ago,... the same airport where an employee had it. There had to be only 20 people in the airport, but still. I'm scared. Are you one of the people looking back down on history, 20-40 years from now. And can you honestly tell someone learning about history, and be proud to say "I stayed inside, I social distanced", or would you be one of the ones who say, "I lived my life like normal, and never got sick.. but it took 888 days to contain the virus". Let's just all do what we're suppose to do here. Save the earth. Protect each other. Stay kind, and keep praying and loving. All joking aside, Even though I am a proud homebody, a Netflix in bedder, rather than any late night adventurer, I am terrified. And I'm having such a hard time being alone. I just had to emergency fly back to America to attend my grandmothers funeral,... If my parents or anyone I love back home fall ill, I'm on the other side of the world. And I know, even if you're with a person that has it, you can't ever make contact, and that person willl.die.alone, but at least I could be down the hall way, or waiting outside. I would be able to play board and card games with my family, I would be able to full, loving home cooked meals, even if it's just tuna-helper. I'm a person who always worries about the future, and doesn't live in the now. (AND I'VE SNEEZED LIKE 5 TIMES TODAY) I always wanted a small, cozy, cute, shit apartment. I thought that was a step you had to take in life to make it to the top. So I always envisioned that's how my life would look, at least for some stage. And now I have it. And all I can do is think about what's next. Is it living in Greece? Greece is only a one year contract, but amidst all the viruses? Do I go back to Hawaii, live with my best friends, that throw drunk marine parties? To sweet, little, rainy Oregon, where I can't find a job? This is all happening 4-5 months away. But it's coming up so fast, because time, life, it goes by like nothing. And I don't want to ever say that my life, that I did nothing. I want to go back to America, I want to fall in love again, get married, maybe even have some babies??? And I never, ever would have said that before. Hell, I'd even settle in North Dakota for that. Life is just crazy. I am also going crazy from teaching online, I lay on the floor and wait for their responses, like, I miss my little friends, and having a schedule. Stay healthy and safe everyone.
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